am dissapointed to the max.
you are so different from before.
you keep critising me,is it really that fun??
and why do u say sorry at the end of the day.
but never change.
i duno what to do.
i feel lost.
i need a break.
from life itself.
call me back when the time is right.
for now,i shall be the living dead.
its better this way.

i duno why and i duno how.
i'm feeling really empty right now.
i dun like routines and i nvr like boring paperwork.
but i throw up my own facade.
so that people arnd me wouldn't get affected.
i do silly things,and get my job done.
so i will not show people my serious side and make them do 'stuff'.
i want to be known as the girl who does silly/funny things.
and get the job done.
not the girl who is serious to the core and thinks abt herself only.
and getting the job done.

masks,i wear mine everyday.
and i grow into mine.
everyday.
untill i duno who and where the real me resides.

nights.

*cricket chrips*

OMG LAH,how long have i not step in here!!
its ROTTING man.
anyway,attachment has since started. and i must say,its quite fun!
from watching tons of video on the 1st day and half the 2nd day.
my neck was as stiff as a (insert stiff object of choice)!

oh ya,its gonna be a wordy post.so skip this if u dun like reading =)

started how to do jobpacks arnd the afternoon of the 2nd day.
paperwork!!tons of paperwork man,like free one.
wei quan was assigned to teach us till the end of the month since he will leave for ns soon.

random!
a jobpack consist of

1. jobpack checklist
2. procedures
3. LOTO
4. schematics / P&ID
5. jsa if needed

wahh i tell u arh,so many things to ask for the checklist lor.like tons of questions.
ok maybe 3 pages aint that much.
aiya,i lazy talk abt my work,since imma be doing it everyday.

so ANW,the pantry at s2 aint that bad,got coffee water and ALOT OF FOOD!!
just today,after lunch,Andrew; one of the os i think brought a bag of lunchboxes for everyone to eat,no idea where he got it from.there were fruits too,so i took one set.

den the phone rang. its was Lily 3 cubicles down the aisle,asking me whether want to eat bobochacha or not o.O
willmen went to shred some unwanted paper and came back with 6 bowls of bobochacha lah.
den after that,there was some service awards thingy today.and you guessed it.more food!!there were pizzahut pizzas,spicy drumlets,seaweek chicken,prawn frillets,sea cucumber ice jelly,so many things lah.and all the uncles were happily eating inside the room.
wahhh,really scary leh,if everyday like tt.u will see me balloon up lor!

ohoh,hopefully tmr can go outfield see reactor xD
but must collect ppe and boots 1st.Theresa is taking her own sweet time =) but she is a really nice person.
EM has alot of friendly ppl,they are all willing to teach,answer all kinds of questions,get us involved in eating and clearing food xD and of course giving us work/thing to do.
if not i and willmen will simply rot there lah.
oh wells,at least i updated my blog =))
off to bed soon,really tired arh...
BTH... kk,nights ppl!! hope those at cptc dun fall aslp during lectures.

ok,hello people,i am jst here to tell myself exams are here and its time to study.
ok done =)
ohoh..
UNITOP - 25 aug 09 2pm blk 56-5-1 seat no. 35
PCON - 28 aug 09 2pm blk 56-4-1 seat no. 18

there,u will know where to find me if u want to =)

I wonder what you'll take from me today
Sanity or just my breath away
It's hard to say
Impossible for me to tell
We're always walking on eggshells
Who you're going to be from day to day today

Chorus:
I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see
What you've changed since we first met
And how much that is killing me
I know that I will always miss
The butterflies of our first kiss
And how you use to smile so easily

Chorus:
I wish that we could go back
To what we were before
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

Bridge:
It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I don't think that I love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I never thought that it will come to this
I know we'll never get back
To how we were before
Cuz I know that I don't love you anymore

It's too hard to keep pretending
It's too hard to ignore
But I know that I don't love you anymore, anymore

I'm sorry...

i think somebody had pms while setting the paper for today.

ANYWAY.macs have garlic chill again!! =D
so all you people know what to do yeah?

SERIOUSLY.
what do you do when you have a very.
and i mean VERY irritating group mate; whom EVERYONE HATES, is in your group?
well,for me,i TRY to ignore what bullshit/motherfucking irritating laughter he/she produces.
but at times,i really feel like taking my slipper and stuff it in your fucking irritating mouth.

nabeh,basic stuff also never install.
everyone say your miserable laptop is worth the price of a scrap metal lah.
can you like fucking listen to people and stop.
STOP LAUGHING!!
one more time i see you laugh at a problem our group encounter,
i will not show you face.

its like HELLO?
final year project is to be serious.
its supposed to make you GROW UP & be RESPONDSIBLE
and all you do is LAUGH?!
i mean what the FUCK is wrong with you?
people try to be nice and talk to you,tell you do things.
and what the FUCK you do?
laugh,give fucking EXCUSES say your rotten laptop is motherfucking spolit.

and you say you DID research.
its like people ask you wash toilet,you KIANG go write song.
hello! listen to people instructions can?
not the first time liao.
ok, so NEVERMIND.
when i asked for what you've researched.
did you even fucking give me the links?
all you do; or rather say, is you read ler.
UNDERSTOOD,but you needed us to explain to you what YOU had researched about.
what the FUCK is this lor.might as well you sit there and rot better.
still need to waste OUR TIME EXPLAINING to you what YOU'D RESEARCHED.
hello,researcher tell the others what THEY HAVE RESEARCHED and NOT the OTHER WAY ROUND CAN!!
really is FUCK YOUR MOTHER CHEE BYE CAN.

HELLO?its FYP,ain't that important enough for you to go get a new laptop/rent a USABLE one from school?
like knncbb can?
and who joins a cca at year3 and says 'it interests me alot NOW'?
looks like your pathetic mind has YET to grow up.

i hope your dick is like motherfuckingly small due to all that irritating laughter lah.

i hope you will faint from laughing too much and nobody would want to help you coz everyone HATES/DISLIKES you.

ESPECIALLY ME. =)